Quit Drinking Together

It’s been a while since I posted anything. Mostly because my computer was hi-jacked by a husband taking classes, and also because it’s tough being a small little blog that no one knows exists. I keep telling myself to not give up, continue writing. I want to help someone, anyone. But am I going about this the right way? Should I be making videos online and talking about this journey instead of writing bits and pieces? Am I writing about the wrong things? Do I go to a platform where people can ask me questions? I’m not sure what to do to spread the amazing news that there is life after booze – for all those who don’t believe it’s true. I celebrated two years of sobriety in January. It’s surreal that it’s been two years and I had to take a minute to make sure that it was actually two, and not just one, when that day arrived. It’s a miracle to me that just over two years ago I was a total drunken train wreck that was about to lose all hope in life. I’ve learned so much about who I am and also realized that there are many, many things I’ve yet to discover about me. It’s a liberating feeling knowing that I’m spending every waking moment sober and in control of my life. The daily choices I make and the words that come out of my mouth are mine. They are no longer influenced by alcohol. I’m also still very much loving waking up every single day with no hangover and most importantly, no regret or anxiety.

At this point in my life, I’m yearning for more. I showed myself that there is so much more to life when I got sober. I’ve done some pretty cool things in just a short couple of years, but I feel a little greedy now. It’s all just not enough at this point. I want to connect with nature on a level I’ve never been able to. I want to be in charge of my income and my work. I want to learn a new language and get to use it when I travel. I want to travel everywhere, even if I can’t speak another language! I want to earn the money that will make it possible to do that all that. I want to love myself more than I ever knew possible and I want people to see that when they look at me. I want my husband to take his health seriously and gain control of his life, too. No one could have convinced me, just over two years ago, that I would become sober and set myself free. That anything would be possible. That’s not an exaggeration. This is how I feel every day. Free with endless possibilities! And knowing there’s so many new goals I have just out of my grasp drives me insane. Mostly due to a lack of money – but I’m working on that.

Do you drink? What kinds of thoughts run through your mind when you wake up after a night of heavy drinking?

If you could do anything in the world for one day, any activity with anyone you choose, what would it be?