I can’t be certain of when or where I had my first drink of alcohol.  I have been told that my father used to put a little of his beer in our baby bottles on occasion.  But I’m talking my first, real drink.  What I do remember is this; it was a school night, and I think I was in 6th grade.  My sister Sar and cousin Liza woke me up and they were drinking some beers.  I don’t know why I was targeted to drink with them.  I was pretty close with them though and I’m sure since they were already drinking at a young age themselves, even dragging their small family member into what would become a full-blown addiction, seemed like an alright idea at the time.  I remember drinking the semi-cold beer.  Fast.  I remember that the carbonation burned my throat.  I remember that it tasted kind of good but had a bad aftertaste.  You ever hear the song by X Ambassadors called Unsteady?  When I drank my first beer. . . I felt like I was flying.  And I soared into a whole new, unsteady dimension because of it. 🪽 😵

Daily Journal . . .

9.22.24 – Hello reader. I hope that you’ve found this page if you’re in search of change. I’m literally starting this blog today, so please bear with me, but stick with me! I promise I’ll get the hang of it and will start to post on a regular basis. This space is being designed for anyone that has struggled, is struggling, or may struggle, with alcohol. For those that dream of quitting drinking and have yet to unleash the realization that they can! I have been sober for 610 days. In that time, I have found an intense peace in life that I didn’t know was possible, and I want others to feel this as well. I’ll be sharing a story that I remember, alcohol related or not. I’ll be sharing my journal entry for the day and what I dealt with. Then I hope to share a bit of what I’m looking forward to. It may take time for me to get the hang of how to make a blog flow since I’m brand new here, but again, I look forward to writing for you and sharing my journey in the hopes that even one soul will take away from this, what I have experienced. A sweet, sober life. There will be many characters in my blog stories, and they are very real. I may change names if I feel the need, but other than that, these stories I plan to share will be written to the best of my knowledge and memory. . . I mean, I was drinking, drunk and/or hungover for most of them, unfortunately. Now I’d like you to know that life isn’t all fixed up for me just because I quit drinking. I have daily struggles like everyday humans and I also live with my beautiful husband, who still very much suffers from the dark side of drinking. (I don’t know any other side.) ✍🏼

Looking Ahead . . .

I’m pretty stoked for next weekend, actually! I don’t have many badass things lined up, but next weekend we road trip to the East Coast. We’ve never been to this part of our beautiful country and are both very much looking forward to it. I gotta be honest though, I’m a little terrified secretly, since we have no solid plans. We have no destinations set, no hotels booked (we fully plan on finding some awesome sites to “camp” at in the back of our SUV and do some rad hiking, hopefully)! I’ll for sure share a daily journal post when I’m back and let you know what we experienced! 🚙🥾